Hello September!

Happy Birthday Mum (:
Hello mummy, I hope when you read this letter you don't go skipping to the last part. I hope each and every word I wrote would make you smile.

First among all, Happy Birthday my most beautiful mother (:

1st September - if I was you, I would be kinda mad that my birthday isn't on the National Day, you know me, I like being famous. But that was if I was you. But mum, the greatest part about the date of your birth, is that it's around September. Ofcourse you know that my birthday is around September and well, I know it's kinda stupid but I'm grateful to the fact that my mum shares the same birth month as me... it doesn't make me fell so alone.

YEAH YEAH, it's stupid.

And mum, I love you. More then anything in the world. Gosh, if I was givin the choice to pick my own family, trust me, I wouldn't change ours in any way. Though we're not perfect, the relationship between me my my mother is unquestionably, without a doubt - ONE OF A KIND. I'm seriously, the luckiest daughter in the world. And sometimes when you put your feelings into words, it doesn't really show sincerity, but I'm not a liar... I just don't tell the truth (HEHE) and well, I'm telling the truth mum, you are downright the greatest mother in the world. Angelina Jolie could eat my shorts.

Moreover, mother, you are beautiful. You are a dime. And daddy-o, is freaking lucky to have you as a wife. If it wasn't for you and your expensive taste, you could have married some freaky ugly pervert and my looks wouldn't be as settling to the eyes as it is right now. Anyway, mum, just know that you're just so so beautiful and no BBB girl could ever live on your standards. BBB stands for botoxed, bones and bimbo... FYI. Mummy you are perfect, you know that right? (:

I would write a whole lot more but knowing about your eyesight problems, I'm gonna end this letter with a short, I LOVE YOU and an I.O.U.

HIHI, I love you.

Love, Kiestina Abu Saffian.

Nokia 5730 XpressMusic

WANT

Merdeka, merdeka, merdeka!

Happy 53rd Birthday my beautiful Malaysia (: ♥
I've learned so many things about Malaysia and how we became as one. History does make you love your country more and though it's a really difficult subject, I love how it makes me know who I am and where I came from. I'm a Malaysian, living in Selangor, somewhere in Shah Alam. I've been a Malaysian for 15 whole years and I hope to be a Malaysian for the next million years and so on. I'd shed my every blood for Malaysia and this I know is true, cause hey, the first blood I've ever shed was here on Malaysia, Hospital Pantai, KL, 1995 (':

God bless Malaysia! Merdeka!

Giving in all I've got

I give up.

Fire, fire, liar on pants

Sleptover of Alya's. Reminisced the good ol' times with her till 3AM in the morning. It was a good night. Asides the whole, "Fuck, my life is screwed" shit. Then Kaiyisah picked me up and I went home. Berbuka with Nandos. Though I wasn't really hungry. Then around 8 or so, Naqib picked me up and we went to a BBQ. With Adam and Nazry. Went to Laman Seri, it was someone's birthday... I wished him... I forgot his name. I feel like a bitch, ugh. It was fun (:

God, I'm inlove

with Anuar Zain.

Equivocator

I'm a liar, trust me. Okay, oxymoron.

I guess you've found your ace

I've always wanted what's best for you and you've always wanted what's best for me. Though you'd deny it, I'm 101% positive that you would never want me to get hurt, physically or emotionally. My point is - You still care, though you don't want to. And well, I do to feel the exact same way. You're a dime, you're the most accurate definition of perfection. YEEEAH I shouldn't be praising you so much, you might take it the wrong way.

Anyway, you've found your ace and all I can say is, good luck in everything that you do.

Sincerely, C.

Current aim

6A's 2B's

A - Bahasa Melayu    
A - English            
A - Science               
A -Agama               
A - Maths      
A - Kemahiran Hidup  
B - Geografi      
B - Sejarah  

Never run with scissors

With love,

Cause no matter how fucked up I am, you can't seem to face the fact that I'm still better than you. And I make it seem so effortless. Suck up your envy whore, you'll never be me.

Boo you whore

For all the weed that Ive smoked, yo this blunts fr you. To all the people Ive offended, yeah fuck you too. To all the friends I used to have, yo I miss my past bt the rest of you assholes can KISS MY ASS. For all the drugs that Ive done, yo I'm still gon' do. To all the people Ive offended, yeah fuck you too. For everything I reminisce, yo I miss my past but I still don't give a fuck, yall cn KISS MY ASS

I think I can be deaf by your intense high pitched scream but yet again I don't mind. I got your back sis :)

-Muzzamel Mazidee 

What do you see?

Look at this ballerina and which way is she spinning. Is it Anti-Clockwise or Clockwise?

If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa.

Most of us would see the dancer turning anti-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it.


LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
knowing
acknowledges
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies
practical
safe


RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taking

I see it clockwise, which means I'm a right brained person. Oooooh, so true (:

I do not like it...

• When people bud into your problems. Seriously.
• When people think they're peacemakers. The world has no peace in it, so STFU.
• When people waste food. Eat your fucking food, people out there are dying of hunger bitches.
• When other bitches idolize Brendon, HE IS MINE.
• When I want a fucking tissue and someone passes the whole box.
• When I say something and I have to repeat myself.
• When people die. Except for the people I dislike.

Rrrrah

Do you know those type of girls who make the ugliest faces but somehow, they still look really gorgeous? Do you feel the same type of envy, I feel? It's like, if I were to make ugly face expressions, it actually serves it's main purpose, and it remains ugly. Why are there so many perfect girls everywhere and I'm not one of them? Ugh, envy.

Lesson: BERSYUKUR PLEASE.

Alright.

The biggest room in life, is the room for improvement

Lol, so uplifting. Thank you, Mr. Syed.

Anyway, today I got a few of my results from trials. I must say, I'm not disappointed but I do feel as if I could actually do way better. I got a 91% for my English (HEHE) and an 88% for my Agama. Yeah yeah, Kiestina got an A for Agama, big whoop. For my BM paper 1, I got 24/40. Yeah, I know, so awesome. During pre-trials, I couldn't even get half. HAHA, I should really work on my BM, I know I know. Hopefully my Paper 2 doesn't suck. Oh and for Sejarah, I got a big fat smelly D. Yeah. 45%. Being optimistic: I got 42% the last time, improved. LOL.

Oh well, that's it so far.

Bye.

Mindfuck

LISA SCINTA, LOVE YOU

Safely watching from a distance, now I see.
Why he's chosen to live a life outside of me.
His hand upon her cheek,
And his eyes have never looked at me that way.
How can he take all of me,
When his heart belongs to someone else?

And I'm trying to pretend
There's a reason that I'm still here,
But I don't know why.
I don't know why.

Broken promise, broken heart, yet I remain.
It hurts no less knowing that love is a losing game.
He's lying with me, though I know she's on his mind.
How can he say, "Baby I love you,"
When it's all a lie?

And I'm so tired of trying to pretend
There's a reason that I'm still here,
But I don't know why.
I don't know why.

I'm so naive to believe in love.
When goodbye is so comfortable,
On the tip of my tongue.
I don't understand why I'm never enough
To make him stay.
Just throw my love away.

And I don't know why.
I don't know why.

Things change

I could be the bigger person, the one who's okay with it all. But no, I'm not. I'm not okay. I want what's best for you and if she's the best for you, then what was I? The one you said was your world. The one you'd take a bullet for. What was I? I can't stand this bullshit, everything is fucking LIE. And the one I thought wasn't, apparently was too. Don't tell me to be calm and content, I'm not. I wont go, "As long as your happy" anymore. You don't know the meaning of happiness. You're a sad sad human being. You're a liar, you're a fraud. And I hope you rot in Hell.

Did I?

Good morning people! Oh what it's almost 3PM already? #Fail

The first thing in my mind today was, did I even wake up for Sahur? I asked my brother, he said I did, I had fried chicken and rice. Then I asked my little sister, she said I did, I even picked up an argument with her that morning. I honestly can't remember a single thing. I'm getting old.

I still

"I'm stuck in a moment, that wasn't meant to last".

Doesn't this photo of me make me look so hardcore and badass? No? Okay.

Hard

Cause when you love someone, it's not a matter of why, but a matter of how much. It's not all about trust, just needs a sense of understanding. It has nothing to do with fate, but it lies on the choices you make. Cause when you love someone, everything in the world starts making sense. Everything comes into one, for your whole world is based on one. Nothing could make you happier, nothing could make you more vulnerable. Cause when you love someone, you just do, no need for a reason. But if a reason is all that it takes, then a reason one will make. For when you love someone, reasons are way huger than the universe but it still remains ineffable. Common reasons could either be based on appearance, on personality or by everything physically, mentally and vitality. But nothing can ever elucidate the true reason of why one loves.

But as time slowly passes by and as my age starts to rise, as my grave starts to get deeper and as my life starts to fade... one day I'll know. I'll know how to tell you, tell you how I really feel for you. And I'll never tell you that I don't even know why I love you, cause I have always did, I just never knew how to put it in words. One day I will.

Unusual deaths

2007: Jennifer Strange, a 28-year-old woman from Sacramento, died of water intoxication while trying to win a Nintendo Wii console in a KDND 107.9 "The End" radio station's "Hold Your Wee for a Wii" contest, which involved drinking large quantities of water without urinating.


2006: Erika Tomanu, a seven-year-old girl in Saitama, Japan, died when she was sucked 10 metres down the intake pipe of a current pool at a water park. The grille that was meant to cover the inlet came off, yet lifeguards at the pool at the time deemed it safe after issuing a verbal warning to swimmers. It took rescuers more than six hours to remove Tomanu by digging through concrete to access the pipe.


2008: Abigail Taylor, age 6, died nine months after several of her internal organs were partially sucked out of her lower body while she sat on an excessively powerful swimming pool drain. After several months, surgeons replaced her intestines and pancreas with donor organs. Unfortunately, she later succumbed to a rare transplant-related cancer.


2009: Vladimir Likhonos, a Ukrainian student, died after accidentally dipping a piece of homemade chewing gum into explosives he was using on another project. He mistook the jar of explosive for citric acid, which was also on his desk. The gum exploded, blowing off his jaw and most of the lower part of his face


2010: Vladimir Ladyzhensky, a competitor from Russia, died in The World Sauna Championships in Finland, after he had spent 6 minutes in a sauna that had been heated up to 110C (230F). The other finalist, a 5-time champion Timo Kaukonen, was taken to the hospital after suffering from serious burns on his body.


2007: Kevin Whitrick, a 42-year-old man, committed suicide by hanging himself live on a webcam during an Internet chat session.


2002: Brittanie Cecil, an American 13-year-old hockey fan, died two days after being struck in the head by a hockey puck shot by Espen Knutsen at a game in Columbus, Ohio.


1995: A 14 year old girl, Ryan Bielby, fell 25 feet to her death while trying to exchange seats with a friend on the rollercoaster the Timber Wolf at Kansas City's Worlds of Fun amusement park.


1982: Vic Morrow, actor, was decapitated by a helicopter blade during filming of Twilight Zone: The Movie. Two child actors, Myca Dinh Le (who was decapitated) and Renee Shin-Yi Chen (who was crushed), also died.


1862: Jim Creighton, baseball player, died when he swung a bat too hard and ruptured his bladder.


1926: Harry Houdini, a famous American escape artist, was punched in the stomach by an amateur boxer who had heard that Houdini could withstand any blow to his body above his waist, excluding his head. Though this had been done with Houdini's permission, complications from this injury caused him to die days later, on October 31, 1926. It was later determined that Houdini died of a ruptured appendix


PS: Copied and pasted. Via wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_unusual_deaths

Expectations

You see this girl you know in school, on her birthday, all of her friends race each other to wish her first. Some even baked chocolate chip cupcakes (Her favorite!) and even iced em' themselves. Some got her chocolates and wrapped it with a ribbon. Some even got her fancy gifts. They even threw her a surprise party with balloons and a birthday cake. Boy, she had it good. Best part was, no one even forgot her birthday, they all knew.

Indeed, she had it good. Well what about me? Haha, let's just say, my birthdays were and will always be, the worst day of my life. I guess it just comes to show that the day I was brought on to Earth was just the worst day ever.

On my 9th birthday, I threw a party at my house. Guess how many people came? Two.

On my 12th birthday, I threw another party. One that cost about 3k, sucked like hell and my boyfriend at the time was cheating on me with my very own bestfriend, right infront of me.

On my 14th birthday, all my "friends" where all fucking bitches, one of them made me cry, another actually forgot my birthday and was harsh to me because she had a rough day, some of them didn't even bother to celebrate. The only thing decent about my 14th birthday was that my boyfriend at the time, he was the only thing that kept me by. Funny how CHICKS OVER DICKS didn't make any sense anymore. Until now.

Now my birthday is getting closer and I tell myself to not expect anything, cause I know nothings gonna happen. I'll just end up with a heartbreak and disappointment. Cause that's just it, you get your hopes up only to get shot down. People you thought cared about you, just turns out to be soul sucking demons. Everything just didn't make sense all of a sudden, you once thought, "Hey, what goes around comes around." But no it doesn't. You do everything, you give and never receive. People take and break. You start wonder, why does shit always happen to me, you get traumatized and start being content with failure.

I hate Septembers. I just really really hate Septembers.

Sister from another mother

This hamster right here, is the best. She's the loudest, most annoying motherfucker a girl could ever know. She is a 3 year old in a 15 year old body. She loves Hannah Montana but Fendi a whole lot more. Her name is Rafeeqa Rafeeq, my sister from another mother ♥ Thanks for letting me crash at your place. Lovee you xx

Manhattan

Broke my fast at Manhattan Fish Market, Sunway last night with the girls and guys. Shahira, Farah, Azeem and Shidy. Met with a really friendly Muslim waiter there. Had good food. Later, we had dessert at Bubbagump. Hoyeah, the oh so SINFUL, Chocolate Chip Cookie Sundae. Sleptover at Eeqa's.

Thank you loves xx

Find me

Heeeeeeeeey guess who studied?

KIESTINA BINTI ABU SAFFIAN!

Baby you're my everything, you're all I ever wanted. We can do it real big. Bigger then you ever done it. You be up on everything. Other guys ain't never on it. I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it. He hold me down every time I hit him up. When I get right I promise that we gon live it up. He makes me beg for it till he give it up. And I say the same thing every single time. I say baby you're the best, baby you're the best, baby you're best, baby you're best. You're the best I ever had, best I ever had, best I ever had, best I ever had. --- Drake, Best I Ever Had.

You do not know how much I miss you

Today, I realized that two years ago, in the year of the cow, we had mad cow disease. Then in the year of the chicken, avian flu. Then, in the year of the pig, swine flu. In 2012, it’s the year of the dragon. Now I know why the world is going to end. MLIA

Right now: I want a burger

Thick juicy meaty beef patty with grilled cheese, extra mayo, a squirt of BBQ and chilli sauce, 3 slices of tomatoes, fresh green shredded salad with two toasted sesame buns wrapping it all up. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. But I'm fasting :(

Here's a blogpost for you to read

1. I specifically told you, I didn't want to have anything to do with you. No single relation. Don't understand English? Well you could have told me from the start. I didn't want to be FRIEND or to be your GIRLFRIEND. Was it so hard to understand?

2. WHY IN THE WORLD must I tell you who I'm with or what I'm up to, if I don't even like you or have anything to do with you anymore. It's over and you are NOTHING to me. Didn't I tell you that already?

3. Yeah sure, you deserve the truth. But why seek my honesty? I'm not yours. NOT. I can do whatever I want to. And I don't NEED to tell you ANYTHING.

4. I didn't hate you, I just didn't want to have a fucking relation with you. IS IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND. Not hate, I just wanted you to back the fuck off.

5. But when you FORCED me to fucking TALK to you when you came to MY HOUSE, UNWANTED, that was when I got PISSED. You didn't have any rights to freaking force me to look and talk to your motherfucking face.

6. I had a long day at tuition. I was ASLEEP. You CALLED ME then FORCED ME to talk to you and when I didn't freaking want to then you PRESSURED ME with stupid ass questions till I started HATING YOU.

7. Then you started INSULTING ME. And I just returned the FAVOR.

8. I DIDN'T REPLY YOUR TEXT BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO. GET THE HINT. After sending me 50 millions of text messages and getting NO SINGLE REPLY, do you really think I was playing hard to get? I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO REPLY.

9. WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU ASKING QUESTIONS ABOUT ME TO MY FRIENDS? YOU ARE PATHETIC - GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE AND LEAVE MINE ALONE.

10. Now, I HATE YOU MORE THAN I HATE SETAN.

11. And yes, I REGRET EVER BEING WITH YOU.

Geography, English

To be completely straight with, I'm not ready. Geography is honestly my weakest subject and English, well, isn't, but the fact that I get a little too confident... scares me. I'm not even taking the time to study. Oh well.

Two thirty sharp

Guess who's homework is not doneeee?


GUILTY :(

Cool liddat

So, it was the first day of the scary scary trials. How was it?



It was a piece of cake.

But I'm fasting, so it was hard, lol.

(Y)

Heavenly

Heart racing. Fear of falling.
... oh shit, not again

:-)

These butterflies are fluttering,
And threatening to break free,
If I can't keep them caged inside.
These stolen glances, doorstep kisses,
I don't think I've ever felt like this,
I don't know what it is.
Please don't stop me,
From falling.
It's not love-
But it could be.

:-)

Went out with Jamal and Ikhsan to Sunway last night. The plan was to actually berbuka there but I was a little too tired. So I went there around 8PM. There, I met with Jamal. It was awkward. 7 years separated, then finally meeting again. Since I'm such a spaz, I ran away from him, due to the extremely awkward situation. But then I finally had some courage to meet with him again... it was still awkward. AWKWARRRRRRRD! Lol. Jamal was so much taller, cuter and so freaking adorable. Not much has changed, he's still the Jamal I remember way back when. Adorable motherfucker :-)

We watched a movie, The Decent 2, cerita paling best -_______-" HAHA, went for mamak and my sister sent them home. Got a 30 minute lecture on the way back home from Kaiyisah cause I was out till 2AM, pft.

You're getting old Kaiyisah, oooooooold!

Lol okay, bye.

From your style, to your walk, to your fragrance. Baby you got my heart, sk-sk-skippin ♥

-Mario

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

Something I've learned about in this novel, is that, people are different. Deep inside, theres that uncertainty of who they think they are and who they think they want to be. People have doubts and people have wants. Lets say Dr. Jekyll; rich, noble and a smart man living "the good life". When deep inside, Dr. Jekyll thirst for insanity. All he wants is to become the exact opposite of what people label him as. Even though it's just a story book but I like going deep. Does Dr. Jekyll felt overwhelmed with everything? Did he lose control out of pure-pressure? Did all he want was to be heard for who he really is? So many lessons that I've learned in this book. How people do not appear who you think they are. For instances, take me for an example, I am a 15 year old girl with black hair, zits here and there and kind-of a loner, as soon as people see me or know who I am, I get labelled the next second. And I used to have that fear of being labelled, of being that "girl" that no one likes. Ive always wanted to do something really crazy, like, take drugs or fucking murder someone, but... I've got these chains around me, I feel trapped, locked in a cage - made out of that fear of being labelled. Sometimes I just wish I could just bloody be Dr. Jekyll. Transform myself into another being and do what the hell I want and fear not to be judged. It's just  funny how I tell myself that I don't care but honestly, I just do. Should I learn to get over it, get over being judged? Well sure, infact I'm trying. Should I change? Hell no.

One thing I can never get over though is how so many weak unworthy human beings can effortlessly pretend to become God. You have no rights to judge me but yet you still do. As if you don't have rotting skeletons in your closet too. Trust me, what comes around, goes around. And one day, you'll get what you deserve.

You are not God. Can't you guys understand that simple statement?

Imma feast on this sexy beast, hoyeah ♥

I wont make you choose, there for I'm leaving

You kept pushing my buttons and this time, is where I draw the line. I don't know who you think you are but here's a little note, you should know who I am, and I'm anything but your back up plan. Know what you have before it's gone and stop pushing people away and stop trying so hard to be close with others who doesn't even give a shit about you! I'm here, was there whenever you needed me, but its clear you just wanted someone better.

And now I'm already gone.

Pick up after yourself, yourself.

I'm done.

Living Skills

Hi! For everyone who's taking ERT for KH. Here are some videos that I hope will help. I've been doing loads of PMR prediction papers and there seems to be so many questions on "Kuih Tempatan". And if you guys are as bandar as I am, that would be your weak spot. But I've been googling all these cakes online and I found videos of how to make em'. So I hope it helps! Cause it did help me :)

Videos via: TheMalaysianRecipes via: YouTube

Cucur Badak



Kuih Koci



Kuih Ketayap



Kuih Rengas

How am I suppose to love you, if you don't even know you?

Dude, you're just a guy. Why do you thirst for popularity? You're no diva, you're no Puck. You're just a silly little guy, living in Malaysia, trying so hard to be known. You're just wasting your time. All you want is not what you need. You don't even know who you really are. So how can I love someone, who doesn't even know who they are. It's pointless, your pointless.

Whoa :O Okay, this is ridiculous. This is so super rude okay. Gosh :O I am a Bieber fan but that's not the only reason why this ticks me off. Brendon Urie actually went through this before and it knocked him out for a couple of mins and well, it wasn't even close to funny. The humiliation... God! What happen to respect among others?! Ugh. Wherever this is, you motherfuckers should be really ashamed of yourselves. Be glad that singers actually do go to your country. Malaysia rarely gets entertainment and you motherfuckers are throwing bottles at them!

Rot in hell. 

I love you

I? You? Love?

Sorry, there seems to be a grammar error. I don't understand bullshit. I've been studying. Trials is seriously, just around the corner. My relationship with F long ended, but we're still friends tho :) Uhh, I'm bored. I'm hungry. There's food downstairs. But I'm too lazy to move my flat arse :O ugh

Tomorrow us muslims start fasting, sooo... happy ramadhan yall!

Xx

You wanted him to not care so he doesn't

But to think that he does and finding out that he doesn't. Whoa, that's shit.

Trying to understand, just trying to understand :/

Frowny

Fuck this

When I don't want to get sick, I get sick. What the fuck.

My left eyes is fucking infected and that means no school. NO! Nothing to celebrate. I need school :( Trials is fucking next week and I'm not ready. At all. I would cry... but my eyes hurt. Lol okay. Life you unfair motherfucker. Ugh.

Vaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaain princess

Friends (ditto mark)

Got a secret

Can you keep it?

Swear this one you'll save

Better lock it, in your pocket

Taking this one to the grave

If I show you then I know you

Won't tell what I said

Cause two can keep a secret

If one of them is dead

I trusted most of you, I trusted him, I trusted her, I trusted them. But none of you guys ever deserve trust. I don't mind anymore but I'm sorry to say, I'll never forgive you guys.

Too much to ask for

Secrets.

Deadly information.

Everyone has these little motherfuckers in their lives and great liars knows very well how to keep them. Well, I'm no pro so yeah, some, I've let loose. So admit it, how many of you pathetic low lives know about me? Some of you even claim to know me so well, even more than I know myself. You guys can't just go straight to my face and say it. But spreading it is, that's a different story.

Yeah, you can say I did this to me, but don't go turning the table on me and grab a fucking mirror and look at yourself. Why are you so blood thirsty to know personal things about others? Do you like, NOT, have a life of your own? What the fuck happened to "privacy"? What the fuck happened to "people you can trust?" Oh I get it, it's just all a myth. Oh well, I don't really care anymore. It's just so sad that you losers actually live on other people's meat. You people are just plain ridiculous.

I honestly do not give a fuck about you creeps. Hell if you got hit by a bus or got gang-banged by a group of terrorists, trust me, I wouldn't give a shit. But is it really necessary to play God? Judging, criticizing, mocking and deliberately spreading... why?

I have nothing more to say. I'll just end this with this.

Get. a. freaking. life.

My family day to Afamosa

So, Iskandar Investment Berhad (My dad's work place) hosted a family day at Afamosa, Malacca. It was great :) We slept in an apartment, that had 2 queen sized mattress in each room. And there were like 3 rooms. So like, we had 6 queen sized beds :O Awesome, yet such a waste. I mean who the hell needs that much beds?!

Anyway... on the first day there, we had lunch somewhere at the hotel. Checked into our apartment. And rode a bus to the telematches field. There were so many ridiculous activities and since dad wanted to be all sporting and shit, I just entered myself to that match where you have to run in the potato sacks -____-" Yeah I kno. I lost, but I still got a prize anyway. A black "prada" bag, just like what Fir has. Hehe :3

Then we got back on the bus and went back to our apartment. Ordered room service. Ate gooooooood fried rice. Took a shower and went to Cowboy Town! Had a lot of fun over there. Won a giraffe bag or plushie, I'm not so sure, lol.  Oh and at the 4D cinema, I encountered with one of my classmates, Dania. Cool surprise :) Weird coincidence, still, cooool 8)

After a long day, we wanted to go home. Suddenly this rude chinese guy spitted at the horse and I told him to fucking kill himself. And he just gave me a stink eye and I gave him one of mine. Stupid ass douche bag. I stalked him to his car, he was a Negeri-9 dude. Maybe I should... nah. Ugh, fucking asshole. He, his sad lowlife friends and his hooker looking girlfriend should just DIE.

Long live hatred, long live hatred

Then on the next day, I played target paintball and then we went home. I reached home around 4 and I went out with Fir at 6. What a long day. Tomorrow's school and I'm kinda looking forward to it :) Gotta study yakno!

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The Last Airbender

Watched "The Last Air-bender" in 3D with Fir and a part of his family members. Since I really hate 3D movies, I watched the whole thing without that annoying 3D glasses. Haha. I loved that movie! I love watching the cartoon series on Nickelodeon. It's awesome, well, to me. In my defense, I find that movie interesting because I actually know what the hell was going on. The haters of this movie should really just STFU, mhm. Yeah, I'm talking about you Kaiyisah. And you too, Kingsley.

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Try this shit

1.) Grab a calculator (You won’t be able to do this in your head) 2.) Key in the first three digits of your phone number (not your area code) 3.) Multiply by 80. 4.) Add 1. 5.) Multiply by 250. 6.) Add the last 4 digits of your phone number. 7.) Add the last 4 digits of your phone number again. 8.) Subtract 250. 9.) Divide number by 2 Does the answer look familiar? It shows the last 7 digits of your phone number.

He was everything I could ever want. Everything I never knew I needed. He makes me wonder. He makes me think. And without him, I am nothing.

--Miss Nothing

Roses are red, violets are blue, friend requests are great, but who the fuck are you?

I don't mind approving people I don't exactly know, really. But eversince the whole, fake profiles and shit I've been cautious about my decisions. Currently, my friend requests on Facebook is 103. And I don't even know any one of them :O And some of them might even be fakes :'(

*Sigh* this is clutter but I still make it a big deal, pft

Bet on it bet on it

FUCK YEAH HIGHSCHOOL MUSICAL!

Lol yeeeeeeeeeees, I'm a highschool musical fan. Well only because Zac Efron is so freaking gorgeous in that movie. *Drools*

So anyway, remember how people encourage you to have a timetable? Saying it will keep you punctual and shit? Haha I made a timetable just to annoy my mum and I told her that the only time I'll talk to her is during moring and night only. And my mum knew I was just joking and she responded saying "You shouldn't do that to your mum you know!" and I laughed but hell, I was serious :p

So every morning, after getting ready for school, I'd kiss her goodbye and leave. Then when she comes home at night, I'll ask how was her day and go to sleep. But today, she came home early. Around 6PM.  And she was in her room. I looked at her and didn't even say anything. And she asked me a question. I didn't answer. Then I looked at her and said, "Sorry, I'm on a schedule. Bye!"

As I was about to leave she hit me -______-"

Hahahahahahaha

Conclusion, you should talk to your mother every single second of the day.

Hehe I just came out with a new idea... HEHEHE

I'm not the girl you knew back then

Things change, people come and go and life just goes on.

          People change. From their way of thinking to the actions they make. From the clothes they wear and the way they speak. Whether it's for the good, for the better or for the worst. Change is a part of us. Even if it makes a whole different person out of us, that's just what life is. No way of stopping evolution - it just goes on and on and on.

          I have long accepted the fact that people change. Cause me, myself, is also a homesapien. I've deliberately cause trouble to one self and also to others, yet I still repeat my mistakes with total consciousness. I regret, I really do. But nothing really holds me back, nothing stops me. So it comes to mind that I have no rights to stop anyone from becoming what they are. The only thing left to do is to either not care or to just take it all in. And I've endured with everything ever-since.

          I'm flawed. I'm a mess. And sometimes, giving up is the only option. But to think of it, what am I giving up? I've been fighting for something I don't even know I want for 15 whole years. And if I had goals now, eventually I'll give up on them! So I've made up my mind. I'm gonna just go with the fucking flow and live my life. I'll die after. And by then, I'll leave my every fate into God's hands.

           Now, I wont let anything stop me. Just like in everything I've done, I never let anything hold me down. Well, once I did. For a guy. Pft, that was one mistake that makes me pull a frowny face -____-" But alas, it's the past and now I live for myself. I'm not weak and I don't care for others. Hahaha, really. If that makes me a bitch, than call me a poodle.

I'm a new person. Worse than before? I don't know. But I'm shinning like the stars in the night skies, better than before and feeling fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine :)

Watch me as I mess up my life and that you, can't do anything about me.

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